Hosea, a prophet, was ordered by God to marry a woman, Gomer, who would turn to be a prositute after marriage.

I was deeply impressed to his absolute obedience, through this, His messages "even the people did something very evil, the Lord still loves them" was finally spreaded out. I can't imagine the scene of God telling him to do so and how Hosea felt.

Will I be able to accept the fact that the pain involved in obedience may benefit those I serve and I personally?

In Horsea 1:7, God rescued the people of Judah from their enemies with no help from their weapons or armies. It shows that God can accomplish all his plans without any help of us. Though we are very important to God, but we have neither the ability to fulfill nor the power to disrupt God's plan.

Dear Lord, please don't forsake me and let me obey your wills totally. When I am in doubt what to do and where I go, please teach me how to follow your ways. Amen.

Before 5 days of receiving GRE results, I was little bit nervous and worried. I seldom looked the mailbox so often...

This kind of feeling came from ...distrust of Him ... I could not accept myself to be a man of without dependence of Jesus. I looked quite strange to myself ... maybe this is another important lesson that I need to attend.

Um...but I believe that through this strangeness, not only I discover myself more but also grow with His guides.

Lord, my kind and patient teacher, please give me a humble heart.

My heart is confident in you, O God; my heart is confident. No wonder I can sing your praises!   Psalm 56 : 7

Even the result is totally beyond my expectation, I'll try my best to show my genuine faith in YOU.

 From Psalm 34,

4: I prayed to the Lord, and he answered me. He freed me from all my fears.

6: In my desperation I prayed, and the Lord listened; he saved me from all my troubles.

18: The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.

From Psalm 56,

8: you keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.

13: For you have rescued me from death; you have kept my feet from slipping. So now I CAN WALK IN YOUR PRESENCE, O God, in your life-giving light.

Dear Jesus, during my hardships and deep sorrows, you still love me ... I truly thank for your patience, mercy and helping hands. I LOVE YOU.